For driven, high-functioning anxious people who have done the awareness work, and still abandon themselves in love.
SUCCESSFUL EVERYWHERE.
EXCEPT IN LOVE.
You built the career. The success. A life that looks great from the outside.
Underneath it, you built all of it so no one could ever abandon you again.
And you still shrink, silence your needs, and chase people who cannot love you back.
AWAKEN FULLY is a 12-week 1:1 mentorship that heals your abandonment wound at the root, so you stop abandoning yourself and start to embody the secure, steady love you have spent your whole life performing for.
THE PATTERN YOU CAN'T BREAK...
You know it as walking on eggshells. For you it runs deeper than that.
You reread the same message five times before you send it, softer and smaller than what you actually meant.
You rehearse a simple sentence three different ways in your head, and the version that finally comes out barely resembles the truth.
Your chest goes tight the moment they go quiet, and you start rereading the whole conversation looking for what you did wrong.
You feel the red flag, and you say nothing, because keeping the peace feels safer than being seen as too much.
You pour everything into people who hand you crumbs, and you call it love.
You say yes when you mean no, and then you resent yourself for the rest of the day.
You watch yourself do all of it while you are doing it, and you still cannot stop.
The decisions are being made by a part of you that learned, a long time ago, that being fully yourself is what made people leave.
THE REAL REASON YOU KEEP
ABANDONING YOURSELF
It is not bad luck, and it is not that all the good ones are taken.
Your nervous system keeps choosing what feels familiar over what is actually safe.
Somewhere in childhood you learned that love was conditional, that being good was how you stayed wanted, and that your needs were too much to say out loud.
So you learned to leave yourself first, one silenced feeling at a time, before anyone else got the chance to.
Then you built a life impressive enough that no one could get close enough to leave. The success became the armor.
This keeps running every relationship, every friendship, every room you walk into, until you heal the place it started.
This is not your fault. Healing it is your responsibility.
YOU HAVEN'T FAILED.
THE METHODS FAILED YOU.
You have poured years and thousands of dollars into trying to fix this.
Therapy. EMDR. Coaching. Shadow work. Psychedelics. Breathwork. The books, the podcasts, the retreats, the courses. You have done the work most people never go near.
You understand your patterns inside out. You can trace them all the way back to your childhood and explain exactly how they formed.
And with all of that understanding, you still freeze before you speak, still shrink to keep the peace, still spiral the moment someone goes quiet.
Here is why none of it moved the needle.
Every one of those approaches worked on your mind. They gave you insight, and insight is not where this wound lives.
The wound lives in your body, in your nervous system, in the part of you that decides in a split second what is safe and what is not.
That part of you is still running on what it learned when you were small.
Underneath all of it, your body is still convinced that:
Being fully yourself gets you abandoned.
Having needs makes you too much.
Speaking your truth is not safe.
Conflict means someone is about to leave.
Rejection means something is wrong with you.
Steady, consistent love is unfamiliar, so it feels boring or too good to trust.
You cannot think your way out of beliefs your body holds this deep. Until they change where they actually live, you will keep doing the very things you swore you would stop.
THE SOLUTION?
FEEL THE WOUND IN THE BODY, THEN REWIRE THE IDENTITY.
Here is why this heals what nothing else has touched.
You cannot rewrite a belief while your body is still holding the pain that created it. This is where almost every method fails. They try to install new thoughts on top of an old wound that is still raw, and the wound wins every time.
So we do it in the order that actually works.
First we go into the body. Through embodied somatic work, we drop underneath the thinking mind and reach the origin of the wound, the place it has been stored in your nervous system since you were small. We process the pain and the grief you have been carrying and avoiding for years, safely and completely, so your body can finally release it instead of bracing against it.
Only then, with that charge cleared, do we rewire the subconscious and the identity sitting underneath it. Your body relearns that being seen, having needs, and speaking your truth are safe. The old identity built around abandonment loses its grip, and a secure one takes its place.
This is the part almost everyone gets backwards. You do not rewire first and heal later. You heal the body first, and then the new identity actually holds.
When the pain is out of your body and the belief has changed at the root, security stops being something you work for and becomes who you are.
This is exactly what we do inside AWAKEN FULLY.
And this changes everything about what this actually costs you.
You have been managing this wound for years. Weekly sessions, another program, another book, another course, paying month after month just to keep it from running your life.
That is what managing a wound looks like. It never ends, because the root was never touched.
When you heal it at the root, it does not grow back. You do this once, fully, and you stop paying to cope with something you could have healed. You close the chapter and you actually get to live.
WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU AWAKEN FULLY
Picture the version of you on the other side of this work.
You express a need out loud, clearly, with no guilt or shame chasing you afterward.
Someone takes a full day to reply, and you make a coffee and carry on with your evening instead of rereading the thread.
You feel a red flag, and you name it out loud, calmly, and you watch yourself survive the conversation.
You start attracting emotionally available people who are growth-oriented and actually want to meet your needs.
Your partner offers you reassurance because they care, and you can take it in without needing it to feel okay.
You stop chasing the people who keep you guessing, because the anxiety they create no longer feels like chemistry.
You are fully present with your friends, laughing and actually there, instead of half-checked-out and anxious in your own head.
When anxiety or overwhelm does rise, you have the tools to sit with it and bring yourself back to safety within five minutes.
You wake up without the knot in your chest, excited about your life and the person you are becoming.
This is what it means to embody secure, steady love. Not a concept you understand. A way your body finally gets to live.
THE EXPERIENCE
WHAT YOU GET INSIDE AWAKEN FULLY
12 Weekly 90-Minute 1:1 Coaching Calls We go straight to your specific patterns, triggers and wounds, so you are never working from a generic script, you are working on exactly what runs your life.
6 Bi-Weekly Somatic Healing Sessions This is where the deepest change happens. We work directly with your nervous system through breath, movement and sound, so the wound heals in your body, not just in your understanding.
Direct WhatsApp Support You get my personal number, the same one my family uses, so when an old pattern gets triggered in real life, you are supported in the moment instead of waiting a week for the next call.
12 Weeks of Recorded Lessons and Modules Teachings and trainings that support the live coaching, yours to keep with lifetime access, so you can return to any part of the work whenever you need it.
The Somatic Library A growing library of audio and video somatic practices you carry with you and use anytime the anxiety rises, so you always have a way back to safety in your pocket.
Personalised Assignments and Integration Work Custom practices built for your exact situation, so the work keeps going between sessions and the new patterns actually hold.
HOW WE ACTIVATE YOUR SECURE ATTACHMENT
Four phases. One nervous system that finally feels safe being you.
PHASE 1 THE AWAKENING (Weeks 1 to 3)
See it clearly What's been running you: your self-abandonment on autopilot, the wounded child making your decisions, repeating the same pattern without knowing why. What we do: map exactly where the pattern began, meet the child inside you, and bring the whole thing from unconscious into full awareness in your body. What awakens: you catch the pattern in real time as it happens, and you stop blaming yourself and start seeing the wound underneath it. Frees you from: living on autopilot, repeating the pattern blindly, and the shame of not understanding yourself.
PHASE 2 THE HOMECOMING (Weeks 4 to 6)
Heal it in the body What's been running you: the abandonment wound stored in your nervous system, the panic when someone goes quiet, the terror right before you speak. What we do: somatic healing through breath, movement and sound, working directly with the nervous system to release what talk therapy could never reach. What awakens: your body learns that being fully you is safe, and the charge starts draining out of the old triggers. Frees you from: the spiral, the constant phone-checking, and the panic when they pull away.
PHASE 3 THE RECLAIMING (Weeks 7 to 9)
Find your voice What's been running you: silencing your needs, people-pleasing, saying yes when you mean no, and shrinking to keep the peace. What we do: practice a new response under real pressure in your actual life, staying with yourself through silence, distance and conflict, and speaking your truth out loud. What awakens: you ask for what you need without guilt, you set a boundary and survive it, and you start trusting yourself. Frees you from: self-abandonment, the resentment that follows it, and betraying yourself to keep someone close.
PHASE 4 THE RADIANCE (Weeks 10 to 12)
Become magnetic What's been running you: chasing unavailable people, mistaking anxiety for chemistry, and needing constant reassurance to feel okay. What we do: settle the new security into your body until it becomes your baseline, and reconnect you with your natural joy, play and essence. What awakens: you receive safe, consistent love, you recognise the people who cannot give it, and you give yourself the reassurance you used to chase. Your childlike wonder comes back, and that is naturally magnetic. Frees you from: chasing unavailable people, needing constant reassurance, and performing for love.
MY STORY
I have lived both sides of this.
For years I looked like I had it handled. I worked as a private chef for some of the wealthiest people on earth, and from the outside my life looked impressive and completely together.
Inside my relationships it was a different story. I needed constant reassurance. I checked my phone every few minutes, anxious the moment I did not hear back, spiralling that I had done something wrong, always braced for the abandonment I was certain was coming. I chased, I performed, and I abandoned myself to keep people close.
I had done the therapy. I understood my patterns. I could explain exactly where they came from, and none of it changed how I showed up when it mattered, because understanding was never the thing that was missing.
What finally changed me was investing in a somatic embodied coach who had done the work himself and could guide me all the way down, deeper than I had ever managed to go on my own. For the first time I did not just talk about the wound. I felt it. I let myself feel the grief I had been running from my whole life, and I reached the abandoned child inside me, the one I had left behind, the one who was terrified of love.
I had been scared of that place for as long as I could remember. And when I finally got there, it was not the monster I had built it into. It was a small, scared child who just wanted to be loved. When I gave that to myself, everything changed. It was never as frightening as I had spent my whole life believing it would be. I just needed someone who had already walked it to be there with me, not another thing I learned from a book.
Since then I have had two of the most beautiful relationships of my life, the kind of depth and intimacy I did not believe was possible for me. I can express my needs and my desires and have them met. I attract people who want to meet me. And I give myself the reassurance I used to beg others for, so I do not need it from anyone else anymore.
I can be fully myself around anyone now, with no mask and no performing. I actually enjoy my life, present and excited, instead of anxious and consumed by my patterns and my fear of being left. When I created safety inside, my childlike wonder and my joy and my play came back, and that turned out to be the most magnetic thing of all.
I have walked this. Now I am here to walk it with you.
THIS MENTORSHIP IS FOR YOU IF…
You have tried therapy, courses and books, and you still feel stuck in the same patterns.
You understand your patterns completely, and you still cannot stop living them.
You are already in a relationship, and you want to stop bringing your anxious patterns into it and finally feel secure with your partner.
You are single, and you are done attracting people who cannot meet you.
You silence your needs, avoid conflict, and give until there is nothing left of you.
You are successful in most areas of your life, and love is the one place you fall apart.
You are ready to do the real work, in your body, not just talk about it for another year.
THIS MENTORSHIP IS NOT FOR YOU IF…
You want your ex back and want them to change, so you do not have to look at yourself.
You want your partner to do the work while you wait for them to get it right.
You have read the books and downloaded every worksheet, and you are still shopping for the right program instead of starting.
You want someone to save you from feeling this, without doing the work yourself.
You are not willing to commit to a full 12 weeks.
You are not open to being coached, and you want agreement instead of the truth.
Frequently Asked Questions
When can I start? Once you apply and we confirm it's a fit on a call, we schedule in your 12 weeks as soon as possible and get started.
What if something comes up between sessions? You have my personal WhatsApp, the same number my family uses. When an old pattern gets triggered in real life, you don't wait a week. You reach out and get supported through it as it's happening.
Is this only for people who are single or just out of a relationship? No. This works whether you are single, dating, or years into a relationship. If you are with a partner, this is where you stop bringing the anxious patterns into it and learn to feel secure inside the relationship instead of managing it.
Do you work with men? Yes. Anxious attachment and self-abandonment show up the same way regardless of gender, and this is built for both.
Is this therapy? No. This works with the nervous system alongside the mind. If you are in crisis or need clinical mental health care, please seek that first, this does not replace it.
How long are the calls? Coaching calls run 90 minutes. Somatic healing sessions run 90 minutes.
You have managed this wound long enough. It is time to heal it for good.